middle way

one of the greatest issues for me, was coming to terms with my life as it "is".

each day, I prepared myself to accept that my life is what it is supposed to be, and that dying wasn't going to give me a chance to change it.

with all the work I have to do in the coming months to prepare for my departure, I wasn't sure how I was going to be able to face myself in the end and feel I really did the work fully.

FEAR... stood in my way of making changes.

but the Universe, opened that door for me.

the chains have been broken....

throughout this past week, I've seen the pendulum swing back and forth in the highs and lows. I've often said throughout my life, "With the highest highs, come the lowest lows." this concept can be applied to just about anything, especially when something really Great happens, something extra Crappy happens to balance it out.

in the past months of my practice, I've been looking to find things like serenity, peace, calm, life sans drama, or as some might put it.... The Middle Way.

with life altering events occurring in my present state, I am at a Turning Point. at this very moment, doors are being opened. there are many options.

but I am doing what I've been practicing for the past few years, and trying to just do the Next Right Thing.

in this moment, in this very second, I'm entering a new chapter. opportunity has presented itself.

for the first time in my life, I'm going to sit back and take care of my soul first, my spirituality and heart get priority.

I am working towards finding my way back to the breath, and in turn, finding my path down the Middle Way. my goal is to break from the prison of the high highs and low lows, delete myself from my addiction to drama and extreme emotion... and find peace in chillage on a whole other level.

there is much more to say, and I'll be writing as I'm working through this experience. life is presenting a whole new thing.. something new... it is not an end... but an opening... a chance to get it right.... for all the times I've said, "I wish someone would just give me a chance." Someone has.